Welcome to my old website

Hi there. Thanks for coming by. Feel free to browse this website, but know that I have switched to a new website which you can find here. There are a few reasons that I did this.

My husband and I decided to record the songs that I've written and I wanted to switch to a more user-friendly web host, that would allow music to be accessible. Ultimately that meant leaving Honeycomb behind and beginning anew. 

It's a little bitter-sweet. This was the home of my first blog and I learned and grew so much as a believer. I am thankful for this season of writing. 

But I am also grateful for the change. It has allowed me to reevaluate my purpose on the internet. There are so many bloggers, websites, and opportunities of reading on the internet, and I don't want to be aimless in my ministry. I have been able to pray, and pray, and pray about the direction God wants me to take.

It's my goal to provide devotional content for other women and to worship God through writing and music. 

It was never my goal to have a million viewers or subscribers, but to glorify the Lord in everything. It is a new season that I'm walking into and I'm excited to see where the Lord takes me.

"I will tell of your name to my brothers; in the midst of the congregation I will praise you" (Psalm 22:22 ESV).

Thanks again for stopping by. Click the image below to head over to my new website.

O Wretched Man

O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? I thank God- through Jesus Christ our Lord! (Romans 7:24-25)

There's a piece of scripture from Psalm 13 that I've found myself chewing on a lot lately. The Lord has really used it to change me in regards to my relationship with Him. I wanted to share what it was because I really believe it is vital for Christians in today's church culture.

 But I trust in your unfailing love. I will rejoice because you have rescued me (Psalm 13:5).

The truth is this: I am Christian who longs to do good, but all too often gives into my fleshly desires and sins. That is who we all are. Sinners.

I would sin and feel an overwhelming weight of guilt and shame. God must be so ashamed of me. My face was downcast and my thoughts always carried me in the direction of wondering what I could do in order to be back on track with God and safe in His love once again. I had sinned and felt guilt and shame because of that sin, and so I believed the way to get rid of my shame would have to be to do something good. If I did good again, then God would be able to be pleased with me once again.

I was living in condemnation. And that is not of the Lord.

I was missing the truth of Gospel. That we are not saved by works but through faith.

For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast. (Ephesians 2:8-9).

And as a Christian who believes in the work of Christ on the cross, I know I am not saved through my works, but I was living in a way that said I believed I was.

And here is where we get down to the nitty-gritty of my problem: I was not having faith in the Lord's unfailing love. That it is unwavering and constant. I felt that if I did something wrong, His love for me was not the same as it was when I was living blamelessly. But this isn't true. God's love for us does not change. It doesn't matter what you have done, His love remains greater still.

It is true that our sin separates us from God (Is 59:2), but it was Christ's sacrifice on the cross that removed that separation once and for all.

Conviction of sin is good. It leads us to repentance. It is truly a good thing to grieve your own sin. But let that grief lead you to the cross. Don't let your grief cause you to set your eyes on yourself and what you can do to fix the problem. We can't fix the problem, and that's why Christ died for us.

Let Christ be the one who changes your heart, and realize the infinite, unfailing, and life saving love of Jesus Christ.

But I trust in your unfailing love. I will rejoice because you have rescued me (Psalm 13:5). 

In a Little While

In a matter of days my life will be changing dramatically.

Ten months ago I left America to go to a country God called me to, in order to teach and grow me and prepare me for what was ahead. I left America and found it extremely difficult for one reason: Jacob Cornell.

I remember my flight to Ireland, and as I saw and held a book, and listened to an album given to me by this man, I wondered how I could spend three months away from him. This moment en route to my destination, was one of my most difficult moments.

Six months ago, just days after I'd returned, Jacob told me that we were going to move forward in our relationship.Yes- told me. There wasn't any question, I believe, because of the confidence God had given him, and even me, that this was his will for our lives. Jacob displayed his love for me during these months in a way that I know has changed me.

Three months ago, on a very good Friday, Jacob got on one knee and asked me if I would marry him. I said yes twice. And Jacob's been asking me ever since. (I'm serious. It isn't abnormal for him to stop in the middle of a parking lot or shopping center, and get on one knee to propose. It's quite the panic on my part, I assure you).

Now, in just a couple days, I will stand with him and make a covenant before God. Jacob will be my husband and I will be his wife.

I spent a lot of my time giving God some ideas for my love story, and a lot of time attempting to do things myself. But, golly, am I thankful that God did not allow me to have my way. I thought my ideas were pretty good, but He had something far better than I could have ever hoped or imagined.

What I am trying to get at with you, ladies in waiting, is this message: wait well. Do not attempt to take things into your own hands, but surrender up your desires to the Lord. He cares for you and sees the desires of your heart. Don't let the monster inside that we call 'waiting' steal your joy for today.

I thank God for the work He did in bringing me and Jacob together. The good news is that it is evident that God was the one working. It is mine and Jacob's prayer that now, and throughout the entirety of our marriage, God will continue to be the one building.

"Unless the Lord builds the house, they labor in vain who build it," (Psalm 127:1).

A Garden of a Heart

"For as the rain comes down, and the snow from heaven, and do not return there, but water the earth, and make it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower and bread to the eater, so shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth; it shall not return to Me void, but it shall accomplish what I please, and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it," (Isaiah 55:10-11 NKJV).

There are a number of things in life that bless us, the rain being one of them. In southern California we have seen our share of rain these past couple months (though not as much as we expected, I understand. Especially in this drought we are facing).

In my opinion the most beautiful thing is the day after the rain. The day is clear. The sky is a beautiful, crisp blue. All the smog has been cleared away and everything is fresh. It is evident that the rain is doing a good job at bringing forth life. Where the fields were once yellow and dry, they are now budding with green shrubs.

This is much like God's Word. It pours into the drought of our souls. It clears away all of our filthiness (Eph. 5:26), and where there was once confusion, there is now clarity. As we dig into God's Word, it naturally begins to transform our lives and, where once we were dry, we are now budding with life. Like it says in Isaiah, God's Word does not return void. The rain that comes down has purpose, and it accomplishes it's purpose. God's Word will accomplish what He pleases "...and it shall prosper in the thing for which [He] sent it" (Is 55:11).

My life can easily become dry when I do not allow the rain to pour into it. It is my desire that, as I seek God in His Word, that life would spring forth and The Lord will transform me, giving me a garden of a heart, a beautiful, pleasing aroma to the Lord.

"For you shall go out with joy, and be led out with peace; the mountains and the Hills shall break forth into singing before you, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands," (Is. 55:12).

"that He might sanctify and cleanse her with the washing of water by the word," (Ephesians 5:26).

"... He will come to us like the rain, like the latter and former rain to the earth" (Hosea 6:3).

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A Satisfied Soul in Drought

Is there truly something in this world with the potential to satisfy those sometimes implacable longings and desires hidden in our hearts?

If I succeeded in my job and got the raise I'd hoped for and the position I worked so hard to attain, would I be happy?

If I gave away just a small amount of my purity so that another would love me, would I be happy?

If I worked exceedingly hard at being good and kind to people and gained approval and love from others, would I be happy?

If I found real love, got married, had children and raised them well, would I be happy?

St. Augustine said it well when he said that our hearts are restless till we rest in Him. Our hearts search and search for even an ounce of fulfillment and when the object of our searching does not satisfy, we move on to another, only to find that it too could not give us what we need.

Jeremiah 2:13 says, "For My people have committed two evils: they have forsaken Me, the fountain of living waters, and hewn themselves cisterns- broken cisterns that can hold no water."

These people did two things: 1. they forsook the Lord, the fountain of living waters. and 2. they attempted (and failed) to build for themselves cisterns to hold the water themselves. Of options one and two, which would you choose? The broken cistern with leaking water? The result there is inevitable. The water would run out and you would have to run back and forth in order to survive, exhausting yourself in the process. Or would you choose the fountain of living water?

The choice seem obvious. But how often do we choose the worse option?

Dear friend, you need to know that there is something with the potential to satisfy our every longing and need and it is in Christ alone that all fulfillment is found.

Jesus answered and said to her, "whoever drinks of this water will thirst again, but whoever drinks of the water that I shall give him will never thirst. But the water that I shall give him will become in him a fountain of water springing up into everlasting life," (John 4:13-14).

 Your searching needs to go no further than the cross. His grace is sufficient for us. He is our shepherd, we have all that we need. He is Himself the spring of living water.

You searching for fulfillment in the world will only ever lead to disappointment and exhaustion. There is not enough money in the world, not a perfect love, not a great position or enough admiration from others that could ever satisfy the empty space in your heart. Only Christ can do that.

The Lord will guide you continually, and satisfy your soul in drought, and strengthen your bones; you shall be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water, whose waters do not fail, (Is. 58:11).